Tuesday, 26 October 2010
Another cloudy day in Netherlands. Six degrees celcius with an off heater at my room. With an off warm water at my bath. Huufffpphhh another case to complain.
Sometimes people just get so excited when their dreams,,their needs could be fulfilled by someone else. And that is egoistic self-centered human being. I had fulfilled someone else's dream. My landlord dreams. I fill his room, I behave as a good girl. Not so a lot of complains like any others. I pay my rent monthly in good order, well one or five days late could not be a problem ^^.
Guess I was just born to be a good behave people-respected girl. I do not make a single damage broken things to the house. An old, antique house that was built on 1824. I just loved this house, that's all. Now when the situation is changed. He just disappeared like ghost, yeah an ugly ghost. wait, ugly patethic blankie guy.
I just can not believed that even my relationship was putting into this kind of thing. Oh my hubby, this is just not worth, isn't it?Do not leave me lonely without your kiss from our last night fight. Because I am just not in a mood of another big fighting.
And now everything is just hanging anywhere. That stupid declaration document was just going to be my sign of another hard losing my guarantee money.
I do not have any energy left. I feel like I want to stumbling down and faint and bed-rest at home. But in fact, I am in a healthiest condition I ever had. I think maybe everytime we had such a weird problem like this, with a cold freezy weather like this, with a relationship like this all you want to do just sleep, lay down, with a hot chocolate on your arms watching some drama lonely movie. That will work!
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